breaking dawn literally

So incredibly sleepy right now, but I always derive my best collective thoughts at ungodly hours like this (and thats how blogposts form!). Been watching Cougar Town on MobTV, Big Bang Theory & watching videos on Youtube as usual. Also, also, rewatching Gossip Girl season 2! I forgot how great the tv show was & how all of their outfits always look so awesome.

Meh, personally this is the worst winter break to take right now for GG Considering how so many other shows are taking over their places (notably Glee, Vampire Diaries, Cougar Town), hopefully when the next episode comes out in March it’ll be a show-stunner & everyone will flock back to gg-lovin ♥

What else? Oh meeting Dina to collect back my GG1&2. She’s been hogging my dvd’s since 4 weeks ago? Haha SNAGF! (So not a girlfriend) and meeting Kai for lunch. Vegetarian for lunch? Yes yes, we all need our vegetable intake!

OH OH, I had teppanyaki yesterday at Bugis!

Incredibly delicious much, I forgot how wonderful food cooked on a flat grill tasted and also how ridiculously expensive it costed. Oh well, once in a long long while : ) Heehee

Picture update soon? Loveloads

according to

“It must be humbling to suck on so many different levels”

- Sheldon (Big Bang Theory)

…

Indeed, Indeed.

I love Big Bang Theory, Mysoju (for their awesome korean films/dramas), Gossip Girl, Vampire Diaries & most recently, Glee has been totally on my mind. Is it good/bad/great/awesome/”fine” (EHEHE INSERT IN BIG BANG THEORY JOKE EP 13!!!)? Mmm so many tv shows, so much time!

^^ It’s good to be free!

reasons why the weekends are kickass

Hoho Hello! It’s the weekend, I LOVE WEEKENDS ♥

1. Cell is always straight up the best thing ever

2. Church – Worship, Sermon, Amazing people!

3. Lastly, weekends are the most insatiably incredibly awesome things ever because fifth alphabet comes back from army and we get to chat! ^^

Ahhh, this makes me happy!

-jumps around excitedly-

only God knows

God knows I try to do the right thing all the time. Each day before I go out, I say a little pray along the way telling God to keep me & my family safe at all times and help me to do the right thing, yet sometimes I screw up and I have no idea why I allow myself to screw up and ruin everything.

Good God I feel like such a entire dissapointment to the existence of my faith in Christ. Being a Christian, your not suppose to screw up Wait are you? I’ve been one my whole life, that has to amount for something. Why is it that some people who screw up part of their life, meet Jesus, and become miraculously good/non-screwed for the rest of it? Oh wait, is it cos I’m not like them? Than what am I, what am I suppose to be like.

I meet sisters, brothers in church, some who know God their whole life and they stay right with him. Why do I keep screwing things up? It’s like a imperiative thing I have to do or something. Every once a month, I have to do/act/say something that messes up everything than I have to re-wind back to day 1 and start all over again.

Sigh, just when it was getting good.

Honestly, I just want to go to church everyday and not face the world. This feels like the worst place to be in right now, the hardest part of being a teenage Christian is trying to overcome your wants and your wills. The world offers your wants, but God offers your will.

I told myself this once

“Commitment is putting God first in Everything”

It’s time I put it into action.

Day 1, rewind.

This time, I’m going to be alright.

five because ten is just for prodigies

Five resolutions for the month of mid-feb & the whole of Marchy! Why not 10? Because 10’s the energy I give for God, and 5 is the average score or percentage I get for academics. (Meaning I always just pass)

1. I promise to eat healthier food in lesser portions, cos even I can eat like 6-7 bowls of rice naturally doesn’t mean I should (unless I’m a 18 year old boy with a non-existent metabolism rate >:[ )

2. I promise to go to the gym once a week and excercise regularly at home, cos I don’t want to be 19 and have the body of an 75 year old nuff said. Having said that, I have nothing against old people, teehee.

3. I promise to make effort in dressing up whenever I go out, cos it’s not cool to go out and have at least 2 friends tell you that they saw you in that dress before, like seriously Nicolette.

4. I promise to read my Daily Devotional in the morning, cos it’s just not cool to read it at 11:59PM every night and once your done, the day is magically over. wow.

5. I promise to listen more, talk less, smile more, wake up when my alarm rings me, go to church on my own and not let my dad send me off (responsibility!), have more fun, stop screwing up. The last one is tentatively impossible, but it is perennial I try D:

P/S: My dad broke the $65 Sennheiser headphones he bought to share with me. He kept on reminding me to not spoil it because I’m so naturally clumsy. This goes to shows that even 55-year-old grown up men break things, I am happy to say that no one is perfect ^^ WAHAHAHAHA (Great, now we have to buy a new one…) Not gloating BTW, it’s just fascinating.

universal remote controller

Woke up today with the zero patience that I usually have on some days, for no reason or another I deign myself to live in silence or with subjected sound around people whom I allow myself to hear. Unfortunately, my mum was not in the list

I hate myself for always being so impatient with her. I’m trying my best to tolerate it, but growing up during my teenage years without nagging/concern in my ears has probably made me severely annoyed with anyone who tries to pry/care for me about what I do. My dad, or like all dads, is the incredibly fussfree that doesn’t ask anything so I needed to go past 6 merry-go-rounds just to get out of anything.

I feel evil >:[

-SMACKS SELF-

The ironical part is that the less I think I’m like her, I am. When I get mad, I keep quiet/walk away (just like my mum), I’m incredibly fussy about my personal surroundings (just like my mum), and I’m downright bossy (I accredit that to my wonderful mum), except I’m also very clumsy, careless, and tend to be incredibly impatient like my dad.

Ugh, such conflicting traits! Foo you tong tau foo.

Okay I need to make lunch now, I’m hungry D:

what makes me happy?

1. God

I thought, being the girl that I know I am, I’ll most likely say people, friends, loved ones. The people that I love do make me smile everyday, but it’s really God that makes every smile last. When my week is horrible, I stand in church and worship God & everything becomes alright. “He’s the only one for whom I’ll stand in a auditorium full of hundreds of people and raise my hands and smile like no one’s watching.“

2. Louis Vuitton

Haha okay, this is the main reason this blog posts exist D:

Anyone care to sponser me ^^ Weehee!

Louis Vuitton Neverfull GM $750USD

Louis Vuitton Speedy 35 $715USD

Louis Vuitton Trevi GM $2040USD

Erk! I really like the Trevi GM but that’s going to tear a huge hole in my pocket Not to mention about 1 year of savings. How! $2040 for a (branded) bag? Incredibly overpriced but completely mesmerizing. Second in line is the Speedy 35, that’s definitely cheaper but Trevi is just knocking on temptation!

Should consider looking for 2nd-hand LV’s! Nothing beats the real deal though.

Alrightsies! Going to hop onto somemore Youtube. Goodness, love that place! D:

Retail therapy

Image reference from Stumbleupon (This will be the COOLEST lunch bag EVER)

Hellosies! I buy most of my clothing online or from US websites, it varies. If I see something I like in a store, and if it’s a major outlet like Cotton On or Topshop, I’ll come back 2-3 times to see it and than go home and think about it. Unless it’s really something I want, I don’t usually buy clothings outside. For some reason the same theory doesn’t work with online shopping. I feel like there’s some pressure going on if I’m seeing clothes that just came out in a new collection, if I don’t ‘snap‘ it up fast, I feel like somebody else is going to get my slot!

Here’s a mini compilation of blogshops/websites that I enjoy shopping/browsing at ^^ the blogshops ones are definitely more affordable since they are based in Singapore, as compared to the ones in the US whereby shipping has not yet been included. (Shipping can really be expensive on some websites!)

Blogshops

• Bonitochico
• Hollyhoque
• KizzofGoddess
• Missypixie
• Lollipop Bestie

US Websites

• Forever21
• Charlotte Russe
• Victoria’s Secret (Heehee)
• Hotmiamistyles
• Old Navy
• Ll bean

If some websites have really expensive shipping, you can use a shipping service. What these companies do is that they will give you a US address (which ships to their warehouse) and you either tell them the items you want or order it on the website and send them the invoice number and once it gets to the US address, they give you a few options of how you want to ship it (e.g: you can combine it with other orders, or ship it your preferred way, it varies with different companies) and than you pay them and they ship you.

Here’s a few shipping services that are recommended: (Based on research, Google and personal experience)

• vPost (This one is by Singapore Post, the shipping fees can peak to really absurd prices if you have a large package. However this is more or less a more ‘safer‘ option since it’s based in Singapore, and you can enquire as much as you want at the Singpost Branches)
• Comgateway (A US shipping service based in Portland, a tax free state. They are pretty good and the shipping charges are alright. Trustable and good)
• Borderlinx (A Citibank shipping service, it’s really cheap from what I hear but you have to have a Citibank Credit Card which is rather inconvenient for most people especially if your a teen or you don’t have Citibank in your country)

Some people do experience bad services from blogshops, us websites or shipping services but when your buying something online you have to take a small risk when doing it. Also, it’s good to be well-informed and do your research before buying anything. Use Google as a starting platform to all your questions, if you can’t find answers try forums like Cozycot.com (for clothing/beauty related), Yahoo! Answers for general questions or most commonly, your pals for sincere advice D:

If you want to buy something online, things like books, bibles, perfume, opi nail polish, even make up stuff and you don’t know where. Feel free to ask me and I’ll be happy to provide you links ^^ I’mma research junkie! Or if you want to find Adobe CS4 graphic tutorials or HTML/PHP ones, same haha! -hides in geekiness-

Loveloads ♥

when silence stays still

I went out to meet silence at eleven p.m today
The presence so accepting I wish it existed more
It’s a nice feeling to sit in the middle of movements
Only being able to hear and listen to your own thoughts
Witnessing the flurries of others
But acknowledging only the actions of your own

Halloseys! Found a cute array of pictures featuring Danbo (the cuter/less animated cousin of Domokun), brown and emotionless, Danbo carries only one facial expression yet delivers so much more through his eyes. Heehee such an artist that brown pasty boy is D:

Euphoria!

Danbo’s cuter than Macdonald’s 12 Zodiac Sign creatures, FTW X1000!

Click here to see more amazing photos of Danbo! Credits of the pictures goes to the talented Bunnyrel

Mmm life has been pretty swell indeed, had a feasty meal over at Pow Sing@Sr Gdn (bday dinner in honor of Adrian’s 18th Bday) just now, the boys sure know how to pig out over rice! Marianne and Jaysee dropped by to say hi&all before quickly huddling off to have a romantic dinner alone, grins, it was such a lovely meal and get-together! We must do more of this. Ooh, especially once Hema comes back from Perth (HOORAY 17th FEB HALLEJULAH!) there’s going to be more people to hang out with and mucho more fun (: (and alot more shopping heehee!)

Mirabel mentioned to me this afternoon a 2-month programme/job/internship to be under Pastor’s mentorship and guidance. Yiting & Me agreed to ‘do it/try it out’! It’ll be rather exciting (rather because I don’t know the full extent of it, but I hope it’s fun! not only spiritually encouraging of course), plus we’ll be getting an allowance/pay? during those two months. More details will be discussed during nxt week’s Service. I’m kinda excited over it!

I’ll definitely miss nights like this where I can slack and laze, and go out to places and just chill with the mates, but it’ll be a spanky opportunity to learn more about God & get some experience! I’m still hoping I can get a job :/ Not really sure. I confirmed with Mirabel that I’ll be interested in ‘doing’ it, at the same time, I really do crave some real job experiences before I head off for Shatec (and be stuck in theory teaching again). Considering I’ve never really worked a proper job before, unless you count church jobs/volunteer work, hmm.

Alrightsies (: Cell begins at 12:30PM tmr so have to get some shuteye. Toodles!

mad as a hatter

I’m mad, I was mad, I’m not mad at anymore

Got so pissed at myself just now cos I realised how pathetic I was having to be 19 years old, still depending on my parents for allowance, having to do daily accounting on what I can buy/when to buy it/what to save! & the worst part is how carelessly people say I can go & find a job. As if getting a job is easy, honestly, I think getting into a school is much more hassle-free than getting a job, why? because schools will want you knowing you can pay them. Companys will be mucho more picky knowing that they have to pay you.

My dad says i’m too impatient, and I can’t wait. That’s such a total lie! If there’s anything more, I’ve been waiting for a golden opportunity but jobs don’t come if you don’t go for interviews. I went for 5 interviews already and they all shoved me to the shelf, the main reason why they won’t hire me is cos I can’t work for some parts of the weekends (mainly after 5pm on sat and only after 1pm on sun), and that I can only work two months until my school starts.

I refuse to lie and say that I can work the whole week and even when i’m schooling, that’s a complete override in my beliefs, principles and morality.

I don’t care! (Ok well I do 2/3) I refuse to lie to get a job!

I do not believe that God will shortchange the righteous, or those who choose to stand tall for Him!

My mum said in the industry, you have to lie.

I think that in itself, is a life. You do not have to lie, when you lie and get the job, there is no blessing in it because you didn’t honor God by telling the truth.

Ok thats just me and I’m a total weirdo for being so staunch on this matter.

>:(

Still quite ‘annoyed‘ at myself anyway! I have 2 months free and I really don’t wanna waste my time at home yknow? Plus, knowing that I can help my family out financially, that I am physically able to work makes me look down on myself for not having a job!

Extra reasons why this day was poop:

While walking home from central, this kid took a handful of soil from the flowerpot and threw it 3/4 towards me! For no apparent reason other than cheekiness. +100 anger points much?

Met my parents and dad started lecturing me on jobs and telling me stuff like I’m not patient, I’m always too quickheaded (this got me more infuriated), I literally slammed the taxi door when I got in which is so unlike me considering I’m so self-aware of my behaviour in public. +100 anger points

Got home, was still mad and wanted to rant it all out on the blog, and than realised that my Flexicard expired so I had no internet +1000 anger points

I don’t blame anyone or anything, in all, I’m just quite frustrated that I can’t get a job! Sigh, really hope I get one soon. Going down to Bugis tmr to look for job openings ^^!

Poopie!