life won’t wait for you anymore

It feels kind of chaotic right now, my mind’s always in a jumble as-of-late (or mobbed just recently, I’m realizing how my mind is never in one place at one time) and it’s been increasing as life has been throwing tumultuous rocks at me. Projects are piling up by the minutes, I feel the productivity bug in me spurring but I always have that feeling that I’m not doing good enough.

It sucks big time >: I wanna like g’out and party and enjoy life, get a drink, sit and just chillax the night away y’know? but a part of me always screams ‘no y’shouldnt cos …. blah blah blah’ there’s always endless righteous reasons to why I shouldn’t do a lot of things.

I don’t want to live till 30 ++ & realize that I’ve never lived my life to the fullest. At the time time, I don’t want t’live till 30, look back, and realize that my life’s one big shitty mess. How dyu balance life and partying, and following God all at t’same time while trying to grow up and make the right choices in life?

I know I’m not perfect, but, i use that as an excuse t’much to be such an asshole sometimes. I think, i just need a holiday to wash away all these thoughts.

Or mobbed more tumblr’ing? Hehehehe so addictive.

Damn.